Saturday, August 06, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! I am 21, 25, 29... *sigh* 36! Not even the boys will let me bluff on this one... But I am ok w/it really - I don't feel old at all.... Stiff, tired and fat but not old! *L*
And since I have had almost a whole pot of coffee, filled the bird feeders, sprayed down my bug loved boys as they went out door and ... well that's about it but hey it's enough so I am headed back to bed!!! Yeah RIGHT! *L*
Ethen is smiling, cooing and talking to me from his bouncy seat - he's examining his hands/arms and it's just sooo cute!! I can't explain the love, joy and amazement I feel for him..... This weekend is also his birthday/anniversary as he was concieved on my birthday last yr... I don't for a minute regret him in any way what so ever however he comes with a world of mistakes that I DO regret.... Dealing w/E is such a stress.... I spend half my time angry and the other half a complete nervous wreck anymore... Next time I start to feel lonely, horney or whatever someone SLAP ME!!!!! Remind me that nothing changes, things are still miserable and stressful... He never going to change and it's always gonna boil down to it being MY fault and ONLY my fault... It's ok though cause it's a situation that is fairly easily remedied.... I just need to hurry up and fix it....
And then there are Ethen's brothers! *LOL* They have fought over a board game, fruit roll ups and golf balls already this morning... And then there is Dilen - he came to me in tears the other night holding his penis.... Seems while chewing gum he got he BRILLANT idea to put the gum on his penis and it got stuck!! *LMAO* Ok maybe not so funny but I certainly never thought I would be working gum off the skin of my son's penis... The look on his face was pricelessIt took baby oil and about 10 min to get it all off - of course the entire time we had the discussion AGAIN about gum staying IN your mouth once you start chewing it!!!
Well it's off to straighten up the living room.... Til next time...
And since I have had almost a whole pot of coffee, filled the bird feeders, sprayed down my bug loved boys as they went out door and ... well that's about it but hey it's enough so I am headed back to bed!!! Yeah RIGHT! *L*
Ethen is smiling, cooing and talking to me from his bouncy seat - he's examining his hands/arms and it's just sooo cute!! I can't explain the love, joy and amazement I feel for him..... This weekend is also his birthday/anniversary as he was concieved on my birthday last yr... I don't for a minute regret him in any way what so ever however he comes with a world of mistakes that I DO regret.... Dealing w/E is such a stress.... I spend half my time angry and the other half a complete nervous wreck anymore... Next time I start to feel lonely, horney or whatever someone SLAP ME!!!!! Remind me that nothing changes, things are still miserable and stressful... He never going to change and it's always gonna boil down to it being MY fault and ONLY my fault... It's ok though cause it's a situation that is fairly easily remedied.... I just need to hurry up and fix it....
And then there are Ethen's brothers! *LOL* They have fought over a board game, fruit roll ups and golf balls already this morning... And then there is Dilen - he came to me in tears the other night holding his penis.... Seems while chewing gum he got he BRILLANT idea to put the gum on his penis and it got stuck!! *LMAO* Ok maybe not so funny but I certainly never thought I would be working gum off the skin of my son's penis... The look on his face was pricelessIt took baby oil and about 10 min to get it all off - of course the entire time we had the discussion AGAIN about gum staying IN your mouth once you start chewing it!!!
Well it's off to straighten up the living room.... Til next time...
